I guess I should make this an official post and tell you whats going on in my life eh? I've moved...again...I live in Grand Junction, Colorado. I really need to find a job so please please please pray for me!
I'm really excited for all the new things I get to experience. There's all the new people wherever I may work, also in my new singles ward. Living with my Dad again...its been a really long time. Also my sister is due Jan. 21!!! I'm going to be an Aunt! I cannot wait to meet my new niece Ashlyn Grace Moses!!!
There's so much more. But I think i'll keep this short.
This is not to be used to diagnose yourself. It is simply to help you get an idea of what's going on, and then you know what sort of questions to ask your doctor. It can makes things in the doctor's office go a lot smoother.
Now when I use WebMD, I've made it a point to not freak out at the first thing I read...and then at all other 19 problems down the list. Chances are I don't have a broken leg AND prostate cancer. So I simply try to read about all of the possible problems with a completely objective point of view. (idk if that said what i meant it to say) Lets just say i'm not going to assume that i have everything on that list.
However, when you've read everything on there and....eh...they don't all match up. I can see quite a difference in what they say and what my actual problem is. But there is one...about the fourth down on the list....every single symptom of it is EXACTLY what i'm experiencing. How long things last. When they happen the most. A very detailed description of where exactly I have pain. Everything checks out.
Meanwhile, i'm wondering how exactly am I supposed to feel about that? Its not like its a minor problem either, this is a huge issue! But I can't afford to go in and get it even looked at. Now, if I absolutely knew what the problem was and/or how to take care of it better. It would be a lot easier for me to decide whether its worth it to have a doctor (and possibly surgeon) involved. But without knowing for sure, I don't want to spend all that money, that I don't have, just to have a doctor tell me to take it easy and use tylenol for the pain. Because i've been doing that. For three weeks i've been doing that.
I'm at my wit's end, will somebody PLEASE give me advice on what I should do?
Thanks for listening.
I have the opportunity for this type of reminder everyday when I choose to live worthy of the companionship of the Holy Ghost. And knowing that this reminder could be even greater after I have the opportunity to go through the temple is something that I can think of constantly in order to help me work towards the temple and recieving my endowments and someday, even a temple marraige.
"Sometimes He calms the storm, sometimes He calms the sailor, and sometime He just lets us swim."
Well, I'm swimming. I've been having such a hard time finding a job, a long with a lot of other crazy things that have been going on in my family. I really am trying not to complain...I think that may be the hardest part.
I remind myself daily that its all in the Lord's way. My time to thrive will come. I just have to keep my head above water for just a little longer.
One of my favorite things to do is ask people for scriptures. So if you have a favorite scripture or one that you've come across lately that really stuck in your mind, would you mind posting it as a comment for me to read? And feel free to read any that you see someone else has posted.
One of my personal favorites is 1 Corinthians 10:13. Sometimes it even helps to substitute the word "temptation" with "trial", or "test". I believe that the Lord wants me to know that. That He will not give me any problem I can't overcome. And the scriptures definitely help me with that. So if you can post your favorite scripture for me that would be great. And I hope that my favorite scripture can help you get through as well.
Remember its all in fun. I hope you guys will play!
So, I'd like to add the documents so that you all can vote on them. I'd like to, but I can't.
If you have any tips to post 'word documents' on blog please let me know.
Admittedly...I did laugh the first time I saw this. But what a gruesome thought for a wedding ring? If you are divorced or planning on it, and hopefully you're not, they have what's called "The Wedding Ring Coffin." May your memories rest in peace and out of sight when you place the ring inside its own, very detailed, very small coffin. You can even buy plaques that say things like "Rest In Peace" and "I do....NOT!"
Temptation, urges, my family, he's trying to get me mad.
What can I do, to drive Satan's influence from my life as much as possible?
I don't know how to get rid of him.
How can I make him leave me alone?
Please, please, leave me alone!!!
They awoke, commuted, clocked in, worked.
They awoke, washed, ate, waited.
They heard, they cried, they hit.
They heard, they thought, they ran.
They heard, they dressed, they drove.
We heard, watched, gasped, and cried.
We thought, prayed, pondered, and looked.
We stood, we stand, united.
Everyone saw something different that day. Some people were confused. A lot were terrified. But I think that most of us, were furious.
We stood up and spoke out. We supported and loved eachother. We were strong.
The current downfall of our economy is a direct result, not of the events of 9/11, but of the fear that we let enter our hearts that day. They never got us before. We were undefeated. Why stop now?
Don't let them scare you! Stand up! Speak out! Fight back! I'm not saying, War. I'm saying, lets be American again. Be the same Americans we were during WWII. Be the same we were during WWI. Be the same Americans we were when we took our freedom.
What happened to those people? They had heart. They had drive. They had balls!
Grow some, and join us.
We are the United States of America.
Let's unite, and be American again.
(This is to encourage everyone to join The 9/12 Project. On Saturday, September 12, Glenn Beck will be broadcasting LIVE from Washington DC, from 1pm - 3pm ET. Please watch and listen. Take notes. Its about time we take back our country!)
I miss it. I miss the feeling of peace and serenity, just knowing how close you are to your Heavenly Father when you are in the temple. But I also know, that if I just have that patience and that obedience and that endurance that we are commanded to have, I will soon receive the blessings that we've been promised. I will receive the blessings and the opportunity of the temple and probably even marraige.
While it is a long hard road, I know that it will most definitely be worth it. And I can't wait until the day I can answer affirmatively, the question, "Do you feel worthy to enter the temple, the house of the Lord?" That will be a happy day indeed.
I would want to do all of the things that I think would make you happy. The problem here is, I don't know if they really will, make you happy, that is.
I could clean the kitchen and do the laundry, I could even vacuum the stairs. But would that really make you happy? Tomorrow I would just wish that I had done something different. I'd wish that I would've held you. I'd wish that I would've told you that I love you. I'd wish that we would've talked about forever. But most of all, I'd wish that I had today.
Knowing that I may only have today, is scary. I want more. I want tomorrow, and the next day, and the next. But we only have today, right?
I know that we have tomorrow. I know that we have forever, eternity. But earth is a scary place without you. And i'm scared that today is the last day with you on earth. I just hope that my prayers are answered and that you can stay with me for a little while longer here on earth.
But most important, I hope you know that I love you.
I've applied to work at the Sherwood Mall Sprint Store and the only thing that we need before I start is the background check. Have you EVER heard of a background check taking more than THREE WEEKS?!! I have to tell you, I am actually getting pretty upset with the whole situation.
I need a job. Not just any job, this job! I've done the math and getting this job at Sprint would be absolutely more than perfect, for the situation i've, regrettably, gotten myself into. And I do not have the time to wait for the stupid background check, or the fact that its been put on hold because of the hiring freeze they have going on right now. Bill collectors will not wait, and I can't either.
I know the situation is nobody's fault but my own, its just getting really frustrating waiting for the economy to bounce back from whatever is going on!
I've offered myself to this whole thing and now that i'm in it and can't get out, now I realize that I can't do it. I just really hope that I don't screw this up for them. That's what I feel like is going to happen.
I don't even know where to go from here.
Other than that...i'm just kind of having the time of my life. Hanging with friends and family. Just making sure that i've got quality time with all of them. After all, life's too short.
And......I'M BACK IN CALI!!!!!!!
All of the ups and downs of the Rocky Mountain Terrain are quite the metaphor for what its been like for me out here. Happy and sad times. Easy and tough times. And then all the friends and loved ones gained and lost. Hopefully not lost forever. Those who are gone temporarily will always be in my heart. For whatever reason, we have parted ways, I still love you!
I've learned a lot about myself. A lot of my likes and dislikes. Things that I'm good at and things I should never try. The kind of people that are best for me, and the worst. And those that meet both.
My roommates: Samantha, Anna, Nikki, Charidi, and Krista. Wow!
My friends: Z, James, Levi, Brandon, Johnny, Terry, Terri (my stock-town bruthah), and Jason. Of course Jenny, Doug and Shaela. Brian, Spencer (i'll never forget that night...lol), Wes and his RockBand set up. And Everyone from PG.
My family: Brittany and Trevor. Dad and the fam. Vanessa and the boys. Krys, Billy, Errin, Jason, and all the kids. Triple G and Grandpa Mikie. And of course my Joshy!
It's definitely been quite a journey. You have all taught me things I never thought i'd learn.
Ill be in the 9X until further notice. So if you're ever stopping by or passing through please come see me.
Right now i've gotta finish packing. After all, my train leaves at midnight. Yes, a train. I know, very poetic of me.
I'm not sure where to go from here now. All of my immediate goals were facing this one life changing thing. I really wanted it. But I apparently forgot about it long enough to totally screw it up. Now i'm not sure what my goals are leading towards.
My direction is lost.
I need a new compass. Maybe one like Cpt. Jack Sparrows...one that points to what I want more than anything. At least then i'll know. So that I can either achieve it, or change my life so that I can have something even just a little bit better than what I supposedly want.
I guess if I ever get one of these magic compasses It will be really helpful. But let's be honest...even if Jack Sparrow was a real person, I think he's too greedy to give me his magic compass. Ya know?
Anyhow, I guess i'm done venting for now.
Well, as I was acting the part of an adult today I realized that paying bills and having responsibilities doesn't have to be a depressing thought. It's, actually, kind of fun. Especially when you know at the end of the day, that everything will be okay. That you're on the right path; physically, spiritually, mentally, financially...and all of the -ally's you can come up with.
So, that's it....i'm twenty-one. I've got a full time job. I'm on my own. And i'm responsible. We never thought it would happen but guess what...I'M AN ADULT!
Okay, for those of you who have been keeping tabs on me...I did it. I am worthy of, and hold a current temple recommend! I'm so excited! And to celebrate, my friend Tyler and I will be going to the Salt Lake Temple to do baptisms for the dead.
I love doing baptisms. It is one of the times where I feel the spirit the most. I just feel so peaceful doing it. So, here we go.
We decided that we are going to try and go to the temple at least once a month. That should be great in helping me to STAY worthy to hold a recommend. I'm so excited. It's been over a year since I've been to the temple and it is about time I paid a little visit.
I will keep you posted. Thanks for believing in me.