Lately my life has been really messed up and confusing. I'm not going to go into details. But basically the one thing I really wanted to do is not an option anymore. I messed up. And it turns out everyone was right....I can't do it. I don't have much else to say. Just need a little venting space.
I'm not sure where to go from here now. All of my immediate goals were facing this one life changing thing. I really wanted it. But I apparently forgot about it long enough to totally screw it up. Now i'm not sure what my goals are leading towards.
My direction is lost.
I need a new compass. Maybe one like Cpt. Jack Sparrows...one that points to what I want more than anything. At least then i'll know. So that I can either achieve it, or change my life so that I can have something even just a little bit better than what I supposedly want.
I guess if I ever get one of these magic compasses It will be really helpful. But let's be honest...even if Jack Sparrow was a real person, I think he's too greedy to give me his magic compass. Ya know?
Anyhow, I guess i'm done venting for now.