We all go through relationships that don't workout. And some of us, go through them over and over. Sometimes with the same people....why? Why do I have a problem moving on? Why, when someone else, someone better comes into my life do I run back to him? Do I think that something will change? Do I think that one day, he will magically mean something that he says? Or do I just find some sort of sick comfort in the fact that I know what will happen with him? I will get hurt, I will end up alone, and I will probably find a great guy - put up a wall - and come running back again.
How many times will this happen?
8.27.2010
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5.16.2010
I FEEL SO GREAT!!
I recently did a little "Spring Cleaning" with my iTunes. I also replaced the songs that were currently on my iPod with some new, more uplifiting music..and let me tell you, I've already seen a world of change! Who knew?! I guess I never realized how much certain types of music can affect me Spiritually, until I made the decision to change it. Boy, if that's not the best, of the simplest decisions i've ever made...I don't know what is.
I think that with this change, I can see more clearly what other things I need changed. That is a huge step! You can't fix something you don't know is broke, right? It's such a great feeling just KNOWING that i'm on the right path. I love it!
Now, I find myself thinking...what next? What else can I change, delete, or just improve in my life to help myself right along? You guessed it! Of course, its the obvious Seminary/Primary/Sunday School answers that everybody knows.
Unlike I-15, however, with my Spirituality currently under construction, I believe I will actually be MORE accessible! Oh, what Joy!!! As I delete the poison's from my life, and invite the goodness back in, I can already see the blessings that i'm recieving...LOVIN' IT!
I think that with this change, I can see more clearly what other things I need changed. That is a huge step! You can't fix something you don't know is broke, right? It's such a great feeling just KNOWING that i'm on the right path. I love it!
Now, I find myself thinking...what next? What else can I change, delete, or just improve in my life to help myself right along? You guessed it! Of course, its the obvious Seminary/Primary/Sunday School answers that everybody knows.
Unlike I-15, however, with my Spirituality currently under construction, I believe I will actually be MORE accessible! Oh, what Joy!!! As I delete the poison's from my life, and invite the goodness back in, I can already see the blessings that i'm recieving...LOVIN' IT!
5.09.2010
Gotta Love Sunday!!!
Today was such a great day!!!!
It was Music Sunday in the Grand Junction 12th Ward...so basically we sang hymns all day. I was diggin' it!
I took a REALLY LONG nap on Mike's couch, which was nice...although, I think I was snoring. Mike said I wasn't, but then he laughed so, idk what that means.
Mike's sister Sarah made a DELICIOUS dinner for their mom for Mother's Day! And they shared! lol, it was yummy!
Went to Ward Prayer and spent a little bit of time with friends.
Couldn't top that!
Also, for those of you whom I've missed, I'd like to wish you all a very Happy Mother's Day! I sincerely hope that you were spoiled beyond belief, you all deserve it!
Here's hoping for a week that is just as pleasant...:crosses fingers:
GOODNIGHT ALL!
It was Music Sunday in the Grand Junction 12th Ward...so basically we sang hymns all day. I was diggin' it!
I took a REALLY LONG nap on Mike's couch, which was nice...although, I think I was snoring. Mike said I wasn't, but then he laughed so, idk what that means.
Mike's sister Sarah made a DELICIOUS dinner for their mom for Mother's Day! And they shared! lol, it was yummy!
Went to Ward Prayer and spent a little bit of time with friends.
Couldn't top that!
Also, for those of you whom I've missed, I'd like to wish you all a very Happy Mother's Day! I sincerely hope that you were spoiled beyond belief, you all deserve it!
Here's hoping for a week that is just as pleasant...:crosses fingers:
GOODNIGHT ALL!
5.08.2010
Sleep: The wicked won't get it, the good won't need it.
I feel like I need it sooo much but, I never get it. I'm so tired each night, but by the time I get home, I get that second wind and can't seem to even keep my eyes shut.
Does this mean i'm wicked?
I look over the things i'm doing in my life. And I know there are certain things that I can/should live without. I can't seem to get rid of them, however.
Does this mean i'm weak?
"You will have the power to overcome all temptation." The only line I can remember from my Patriarchal Blessing. I need to get a new copy of it but never seem to 'get around to it'. (What does that even mean?) I know I will only have this power if i'm doing everything right...everything i'm supposed to be doing to follow the Lord.
So, what am I missing?
SUNDAY SCHOOL ANSWERS. Everyone knows them. They seem so simple yet....yet, what? Am I avoiding it? Am I ignoring it? What am I doing?
"We live in a day and time that is a battlefield. We need to be armed each day to make it out alive." This is my favorite 'locked' text message i've ever recieved. I read it everyday. So....what is the problem?
I must ask myself, "Holly, what are you doing (or not doing) in your life that is keeping the Spirit from you? What must you do to change it? Why have you not begun to fix the problem?"
I don't have an answer for myself. Is it because I don't know? Or is it because I have no good reason? Is there any such thing as a "good reason" for not doing the right thing? No!
Now, what?
"Do or do not - there is no try." Thanks Yoda.
Does this mean i'm wicked?
I look over the things i'm doing in my life. And I know there are certain things that I can/should live without. I can't seem to get rid of them, however.
Does this mean i'm weak?
"You will have the power to overcome all temptation." The only line I can remember from my Patriarchal Blessing. I need to get a new copy of it but never seem to 'get around to it'. (What does that even mean?) I know I will only have this power if i'm doing everything right...everything i'm supposed to be doing to follow the Lord.
So, what am I missing?
SUNDAY SCHOOL ANSWERS. Everyone knows them. They seem so simple yet....yet, what? Am I avoiding it? Am I ignoring it? What am I doing?
"We live in a day and time that is a battlefield. We need to be armed each day to make it out alive." This is my favorite 'locked' text message i've ever recieved. I read it everyday. So....what is the problem?
I must ask myself, "Holly, what are you doing (or not doing) in your life that is keeping the Spirit from you? What must you do to change it? Why have you not begun to fix the problem?"
I don't have an answer for myself. Is it because I don't know? Or is it because I have no good reason? Is there any such thing as a "good reason" for not doing the right thing? No!
Now, what?
"Do or do not - there is no try." Thanks Yoda.
4.13.2010
Its about time!
So, i'm really bad at this blogging thing. I read everyone's...just have a hard time posting my own. So here's an update of everything so far.
Colorado is pretty awesome. I love all the outdoors and everything that you can do here. The possibilities are endless! I went snowshoeing for the first time! I also went hiking, while it was snowing...to a water fall! Figure that one out?! It was a blast though! I can't wait to do more and more! Everyone here has horses so i'm trying to find someone that will take me horseback riding....no luck so far.
As far as employment goes, I just started TWO jobs. I work at Taco Bell and I work for the Local Census Office. My hours are a bit crazy and I will be lacking in the social life for quite sometime...but it'll be worth it.
I'm playing the guitar a lot more...not really progressing with it...but still playing a lot more. I'm also kind of trying to teach myself how to play the piano...there is some progression there. But only some.
I LOVE my ward! Which is strange because I never thought that any other ward could live up to the Pacific YSA standards...we're pretty close here! I'm having a great time! I have a great calling as a part of the activities committee and we are always busy planning and preparing fun and exciting things for everyone! We have some majorly great ideas! I wish there was more time so that we could do them all!!!!! But so far we just have to narrow it down to the best of the best.
No dating yet....there are a few guys I may be interested in but I don't want to ask and then expect them to pay for everything...so we'll see what happens when I start recieving paychecks. I did ask one guy to go dancing...because we can get in free...lol. But he took a raincheck...maybe another time. It was last minute...I asked him ten minutes before I left so I can't blame him for not being able to make it. He seemed happy that I asked, and bummed that he really couldn't go, i'm taking that as a good sign. There is another guy I want to ask on a date...but i'm having trouble coming up with a plan for what we could do...so any ideas would be great!
Well, I do think that is the jist of it. I'm just trying to keep a float with all that is going on. Majorly good times! Some that are not so good...but I try not to focus on those ones.
Well, it seems that its time to go for now! I hope to hear from you all and I will try to keep posting more often!
TTFN
Colorado is pretty awesome. I love all the outdoors and everything that you can do here. The possibilities are endless! I went snowshoeing for the first time! I also went hiking, while it was snowing...to a water fall! Figure that one out?! It was a blast though! I can't wait to do more and more! Everyone here has horses so i'm trying to find someone that will take me horseback riding....no luck so far.
As far as employment goes, I just started TWO jobs. I work at Taco Bell and I work for the Local Census Office. My hours are a bit crazy and I will be lacking in the social life for quite sometime...but it'll be worth it.
I'm playing the guitar a lot more...not really progressing with it...but still playing a lot more. I'm also kind of trying to teach myself how to play the piano...there is some progression there. But only some.
I LOVE my ward! Which is strange because I never thought that any other ward could live up to the Pacific YSA standards...we're pretty close here! I'm having a great time! I have a great calling as a part of the activities committee and we are always busy planning and preparing fun and exciting things for everyone! We have some majorly great ideas! I wish there was more time so that we could do them all!!!!! But so far we just have to narrow it down to the best of the best.
No dating yet....there are a few guys I may be interested in but I don't want to ask and then expect them to pay for everything...so we'll see what happens when I start recieving paychecks. I did ask one guy to go dancing...because we can get in free...lol. But he took a raincheck...maybe another time. It was last minute...I asked him ten minutes before I left so I can't blame him for not being able to make it. He seemed happy that I asked, and bummed that he really couldn't go, i'm taking that as a good sign. There is another guy I want to ask on a date...but i'm having trouble coming up with a plan for what we could do...so any ideas would be great!
Well, I do think that is the jist of it. I'm just trying to keep a float with all that is going on. Majorly good times! Some that are not so good...but I try not to focus on those ones.
Well, it seems that its time to go for now! I hope to hear from you all and I will try to keep posting more often!
TTFN
3.28.2010
'The Glad Game'
What can I be 'glad' about?
My family, my friends, my faith, my health (sort of...it could be worse), the sunshine, my ward...there's so much I can be glad about that it would be a little bit ridiculous and probably very tedious for me to list EVERYTHING right here. Now, I know i'm not the most chipper person you've met. But hey, I am trying! "To try is to sit, you have to do!" ya ya...saw that movie too. Yoda said something about it as well didn't he? Not the point....yes I have one.
The point is that I haven't failed, because I haven't given up. Everyday I keep trudging through, finding things to laugh about and things to smile at. No, it's not always easy...but who's life is? If you think your life is easy then be extremely grateful, and hold on tight cause there's something coming around the corner for you. That's life and, I'm living it.
I think you should give life a shot. Totally worth it!
My family, my friends, my faith, my health (sort of...it could be worse), the sunshine, my ward...there's so much I can be glad about that it would be a little bit ridiculous and probably very tedious for me to list EVERYTHING right here. Now, I know i'm not the most chipper person you've met. But hey, I am trying! "To try is to sit, you have to do!" ya ya...saw that movie too. Yoda said something about it as well didn't he? Not the point....yes I have one.
The point is that I haven't failed, because I haven't given up. Everyday I keep trudging through, finding things to laugh about and things to smile at. No, it's not always easy...but who's life is? If you think your life is easy then be extremely grateful, and hold on tight cause there's something coming around the corner for you. That's life and, I'm living it.
I think you should give life a shot. Totally worth it!
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